There's Power In Your Fortitude...I can wait out ANY thunderstorm

I've held my ground against a lot of bad things, a TIDAL WAVE of REALLY REALLY bad thing.

My Resistance, MY OPPOSITION IS AS FOLLOWS during the last 10 years ALONE!: A National state in a complete state of disarray and chaos, 3-4 Hurricanes of epic magnitude (I forget which), cyber hackers spying on me, a sociopathic stalker and sociopath who tried to use hacked information about me to destroy me and my life from the inside out, Sociopathic neighbors who bullied me every day in my own house and online and sold drugs and narcotics to other kids, one kid who tortured a kitten by lighting it in fire and stuffing it in a mail  box, media witch hunts targetting me, hatredcopters flying around my house, a police state, a red state, a robbed election in 2000, 9-11, anti-arab sentiment at my work place which led to me quitting my day job, long bouts of unemployment, multiple hospitalizations from nervous breakdowns, parents who don't let me live my life and be who I really am. An army of malicious clones on TV imposters trying to get on then news and ruin my reputation, or being EMPLOYED BY the news to ruin my reputation and destroy the army of online respect complete strangers feel for me, a house where I'm never alone and its never actually peaceful, tranquil, harmonious, OR quiet, 1 suicide attempt, years of ineffective therapy, the FBI on my ass because they were investigating my stalker who was trying to bury me. Constant severe thunderstorms right outside my house. Power outages. Constant screaming matches between my Dad, brother, and Mom. Financial bankruptcy. Mental illness. Roach infestations. Diarrhea with blood on the toilet paper every so often. Constant ridicule and criticism from fans and the media. Yet despite all this, I still smile nearly every day and face each day with an almost unjustifiable brand of happiness and optimism. Zen and God give me the power to survive things like this.

And I've been afraid. Oh how terrifying it all is. I can't tell you how many times I've been doing nothing but sitting there in my bedroom, lying down in the fetal position on my bed, in the evening and afternoon dark, with the blinds closed and the lights off, sometimes with covers covering my body, sometimes not covered by blankets, just trying to hide from this Big Bad Evil World, hoping no one would come for me praying I wouldn't have to interact with anyone for that particular day, just hiding in the dark like a mole, afraid to ever leave my house. Just hoping the day would pass, huddled over, hiding from my terrifying life. It made me feel so small. The Evil. I would often lie down in bed, literally hiding from my destiny to get out there in the world and see everything, which is my REAL nature deep down. But that doesn't mean it doesn't confuse me.

Point is, I've  weathered life's challenges. I've weather a LOT of challenges. Apparently I'm powerful enough to survive such socially and culturally and devastating private circumstances, so I've got the whole "Power Survivor" thing working for me. It has not been an easy ride. I just hope it gets easier at one point. You can pray for me and my success, but I don't know how much good that will do.

And while I know I've had a lot of tragedy, fear, and misfortune and other forms of suffering in my life. I'd hardly call it unsuccessful. For some reason a lot of successful people gravitate to me. And let's not forget my awards and YouTube Channels and vast web social media empire. So it isn't always bad. Just on and off.