I hate to Shatter any Showbusiness or Media Image You Might Have Concocted Surrounding Me. But the Era of Aspiration is Over. The Equation is Broken and Will Never Work Again...

It took me a while to realize it, but being a popular cult animated series creator is no longer what I aspire to do. For multiple and numerous reasons.

Teamwork. I don't have a team, and frankly, I'm terrible at teamwork and team dynamics in business. I'm a lone wolf and fly solo, like most people online.

• The Internet and Google/YouTube/Twitter Changed Everything
• Piracy and Industry Politics
• Comic-Con and Social Phobia
• Automatic Emmy Strikeout
• My Hate-Filled Antagonistic Relationship With Adult Swim
• Anime Deleting American Animation's Popularity
• Lack of Privacy, Internet Hackers
• Abusive Homelife
• Fabricated Child-Abuse Accusations of paranoid delusional sociopath Brian Johnston and his sexualized issues, and “Brian's getting molested and raped by someone” issues. Kind of takes the joy of of work, to say nothing of LIVING.
• My Life Story
• Conflicting Personalities and Industry
• Industry Politics
• Petty Grievances, Creators and Fan Saboteurs With a Vendetta. Competition
• Psychiatric Hospitalization and Helicopter Family Parents
• Psychological Insecurity and Instability
• Too Much Need For Power and Strength
• Pre-Existing Power and Fame
• End Times, Anime, Webomics (“Baggage”)
• Disliked, Unpopular, Infamous, and Controversial Creator
• Deceptive Industry (All “Friendly” and shit Up Front)
• Brian Johnston
• Modern Day Blacklisting
• Evil Eye Curse
• Headliner Kanye News Story “Big Pepe” (Dexter, MTV)
• Sexualized Teen Idol and Stigmatized “Nerd, Geek, Dork” High School Fecal Matter
• Stigma, Bullying, Stereotypes, and Racism in the Industry against Blacks and Arabs
• Everyone Doubting Me and Claiming I Can't Win
• Viacom & Disney, Nazis of Childhood

Wow. What a Nightmare.

All these elemenets ensure, realistically speaking, there are enough active and aggressive conspiratorsand factors working against me to make sure I never get that job to begin with, or financial and social disaster would occur if I DID get the job. It's bad enough Jhonen is big enough social pariah, and he had a lot more success and favorable conditions working in his favor at the time on Zim than me. Why do I think my luck, which is worse than his, would fair any better. I had even more negative stigmatized factors working against me than even Jhonen himself, and Jhonen himself, my Hero, was blacklisted by the Hollywood industry, thus explaining why he couldn't get a consistent job.

I want to be a cartoonist. Not an animator.