A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Polymath

Friday, April 21, 2017

The Unedited End Times Manuscript is 8,000 Pages Long

In a certain sense, I've drawn at least 3,000 devoted to End Times. In a certain sense, every drawing I did between 2004 and 2017 was drawn with the Development and Manifestation of the End Times New Earth Mythos in mind. If I drew something that didn't belong to that world, I had still attempted to create that “failed” attempt as something that did. Every drawing I created between 2004 and now was created with the intent ot contribute to the imaginary world of End Times and Mono. So even if the content wasn't always related, the intent of the mind that created that drawing was. Same thing with these Journals and Manifesto. The energy that created that massive pile of pages was entirely and 100% devoted to Building End Times. I didn't lack Focus in my Building. I was actually very single minded. I lacked Execution. That's why I wrote mostly journals instead of short and extended fiction for novels and End Times. It was an 8,000 page Novel and Stack of papers and Digital JPGs of me attempting to not only develop End Times, but also Manifest and Build the End Times World. So technically, if one counts every page I drew and wrote that was made for End Times, The End Times Development Manuscript is around 8,000 pages long, with pages both published and unpublished published, online and off, fiction story, Sketchbook, Spiral Notebook, and Journal Book and Entry alike.  

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

How is your internet career? Mine takes more than gives...

I don't know if people know about this, but I've put a lot of money into maintaining my career online, and into web maintenance fees for the various URLs and webpages, and websites I own.

I've put a lot more money into whatever it is you think I am than my career ever gave back to me. Amazon paid me the largest amount of royalties I've ever gotten, which is to say $200 or so.

Bottom line is, I give Money out of MY POCKET to be as well known as I am, I've spent hundreds if not thousands of dollars on maintaining my art, writing, and brand. 

I pay a lot of money to do what I do because this matters a lot to me. I don't put all this effort into my career because of "return on investment" as it has never amounted to much. 

I'm not rich, and I might never be. Then again I suppose it could happen, if I ever again attained a large audience of people, I suppose if I had an online audience of millions, I could slap a few banner ads on it, buy a house to escape from my parents, and be done with it. But my audience is never simply grateful. They think they're owed something: By me. If they paid my bills, then I'd be grateful, but my audience doesn't do that. My audience just COMPLAINS and whines like little bitches. It's kind of ridiculous, the way my audience acts - Aggressively. 

Sunday, April 9, 2017

The End Times was NOT an overnight success. Looks are deceiving

I've been attempting to drawing comics since I was 7 years old, in elementary school, if not even earlier.

I wrote a Journal devoted to almost nothing but documenting my admiration for, and desire to draw comic books and manga from 2000 – 2017 and beyond, a 5,000 page manifesto of my creative process, and how I was devoting all of my resources and power to drawing and writing my own comics 80% of that 5,000 pages was devoted to comic book planning and contemplation, planning how I was making and effort to get artwork done, repeatedly, for almost 2 decades. Even though my art was a bit crude from time to time, I still moved forward with drawing comics. Then, in 2013, when I finally got published and DID in fact make it onto the Kindle Manga bestseller list, I got reviews from people who thought I was as thoughtless in my approach as the teenagers and little kids posting shitty webcomics who were also underestimating my abilities. Instead of hearing any praise of my labor intensive and almost 2 decade long approach to my comics production process, the opposite thing happened. People assumed I didn't put any time or effort into my comics production process, and not only did rip-off get-rich-quick-online artist toss out a bunch of thoughtlessly rushed pail imitations of end times, I got 1-star comic reviews from people who don't even READ comic books, know-it-all dickheads with comments like this:

 but this just seems like someone was bored at lunch, quickly drew some stuff and thought, hey, I wonder if I can make this into a book. With the caveat that I don't read a lot of magna and some who are more immersed in that genre may find some redeeming qualities, this just simply looks like lazy work.”

Kind of like you're LAZY ASSED MOTHERFUCKING REVIEW! RIGHT YOU PRETENTIOUS LITTLE DOUCHEBAG PRICK! Maybe you should learn to SPELL "Magna" correctly before you fucking review it, ASSHOLE

THIS HORSE..SHIT is the thanks I get for devoting 18 years of my life to creating innovative comics.

Saturday, April 8, 2017

Challenges of Adapting and switching into more commercial mediums (Comics)

Challenges of Adapting and switching from Illustrations to the comic book and manga storytelling genre.

Adapting to drawing in condensed little panels and rectangles is one of the most challenging and frustrating challenges of my career. I still haven't mastered the switch, if I ever will. But I've improved. I think it has to do with the “drawing a tiny composition” part. I'm not good at drawing artwork on a small and reduced scale. I'm not a bad artist overall by any means. In terms of my illustration skills, I've always had it going on. But I didn't anticipate how difficult the switch from conceptual design to illustration would be. To prove my point, here is a side by side comparison of 4 of my more so-called “amateurish” comic book pages, and how I REALLY draw when I'm in my element, and am in full on Artist Mode.

Saturday, April 1, 2017

End Times: The Eras

  • The Webcomics Nation Era: 2007 - 2013
  • The Comic Fury Era: 2015 - Present

Wednesday, March 29, 2017