I'm still relatively young, well younger than alot of other pros in comics, but I'm well past my childhood or adolescence. I'm a young adult. Whether I like it or not I'm starting to realize I need to acknowledge that I'm getting older. Frank Miller is a good example. There's cancer rumors. Have you SEEN pictures of him lately. The guy looks like a LIVING CORPSE. I don't know how old he is exactly, I never even thought about things like that...till I saw what his face looks like recently. There are cancer rumors. It's sad.
I don't know if I'm past my prime, but I'm no spring chicken, plus I've been through a lot of medical trauma and issues in my private life. There's a lot of factors and setbacks in my life and health I don't bring up here. Like the fact that I have gynecomastia and mid level obesity from all that damn medication pills doctors and parents want to force on me.
That was when I realized, it's not just that I "don't have my shit together", I "don't have creativity", "I'm a hack" or "don't have what it takes.". It's all the damn trauma and neurobiological-trauma I've endured at the hands of cruel and abusive people. Medical frauds and whatnot.