I don't know what it is with the women in my life...

So I've been in one way correspondence with my long-lost girlfriend from art school, who moved from Florida (her temporary residence away from New Jersey where her parents lived) to Portland, Oregon, who from 2003 to until 2010 I wasn't granted the opportunity to correspond with or so. And to this day it's a one way communication, as I can't officially tell if she recognizes or remembers me. I send her messages to her email through her photography website profile, but even to this day she doesn't have a phone number I know of. The relationship, as it always was, was not mutual, as I've always felt a lot more affection towards her than she has me. But still, other than one female childhood friend named Amanda, Nicole is all I have. She may be unable or unwilling to communicate openly online and not in private, but she's one of the only remaining links I have to my past, outside of my regular male middle school chums.