Worries

Working on my art took a lot out of me. Drawing that detailed takes a lot of energy.

I'm a little worried End Times might always remain JUST a movie trailer and series pitch.

I guess we'll just have to wait and see. 

Ever wonder what it would look like if I (author J.M. Matthews) got serious about his writing?

Scribd Account (save it to your favorites section!)

I got your serious literature right here...

Why Google and Amazon can go fuck themselves for banning an army of accounts...

Seriously, Amazon and Google need more successful competing sites that do the same things. Both sites banned me (J.M. Matthews) for life from publishing vidoes of anime and my original books, banning me me from making money at any of it all at the same time. They've damaged my career so much through abuse of their authority and power with their algorithms and monopolies, my only option is to wait for new e-retailers and video publishers to arise, that don't publish people for publishing anime episodes, or marketing my books for a lower price that isn't a total scam to less knowledgeable authors. 

I'm starting to hate all this. Why keep trying?

"Mysterious Absence"

N'ah, I don't think it's so much of an absence as I'm less motivated to document my process and life. I've been doing that for 15 years with little finished product to show for it. I'm 33 years old dammit. It's time to get to work finally. It's just I feel less of a need to announce my intentions or emotions to the world. If you want to be a great writer or author, you're going to have to eventually settle down, stop talking, and write. Simple as that....

J.M. Matthews' Social Media Bibliography:

Twitter: https://twitter.com/JMMatthewsBooks

Blogger: http://jm-macabre.blogspot.com

Scribd: https://www.scribd.com/user/257363615/J-M-Matthews

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/672394.J_M_Matthews

YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmM8w6LlGx2-UQYBwlNrXuw?view_as=public

Tumblr: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jm-matthews

Comic Fury: http://mono.thecomicseries.com

Check the following Social Media Outlets for J.M. (my) latest updates for myself and my projects.

Retirement

So, I'm retiring from comics, after deciding I don't have the resources, the support, the energy, the space, the peace of mind, or the time to continue producing comics. You should see my room, it's like something out of Harry Potter. It's a 15 x 20 shithole, and the floor is covered in clutter and crumbs, hence making it not very  conducive for creative activity. I have other creative activity I'll probably pursue for a living. But rest assured it won't be webcomics or regular comics. Too unstable. Too much competition. But mostly this story has to do with surviving parental abuse from 63 year old stubborn ass face pharmacists who think they're god's gift to humanity.

While there are chances I could come out of retirement, it's looking pretty doubtful that could happen. It mostly has to do with money and support and their not being enough of here. Certainly not enough for me to do it for the rest of my life.

And with that,

I am

J.M. Matthews

p.s. - Now hold on a minute, children, this could all be me getting overburdened with emotions, stress, abuse, and the pressure of running one of the 10 most popular webcomics online today (if imitation mimicry from my peers is any indicator, to say the least). Maybe my audience and fans will get lucky and will find out I'm coming out of retirement 6 months later, because the pressure of running one of the most popular webcomics in the world relented. Also I'm considering giving my storyline an ending and making the storyline finite, as that seems to be how all indie comics operate: on a limited bases, to prevent their creator from blowing his brains out because of all that bullshit. 

Poverty Times

Lotta bad stupid insane shit has been happening between now (Year end 2016) and midway 2015. But I prefer not to bring up my rendition of it publicly if given a choice, because a part of me doesn't want the market or public or reporters and the press no how bad it really is for some of it. They'd flip out (maybe destructively if they knew the truth). So I keep it to myself. Trump and CN's 2015-2016 lineup's horribleness only scratches the surface of this situation. I'll get back to doing my job on my comic and fiction writing when 1) I have a significant amount more quiet and stress free moments in my life, and am not forced to deal with other people's aggression, and selfishness, and 2) I find a work procedure that works, and I'm not just flinging my own shit at a wall 98% of the time. 

Seriously though, I have the drawings done. I really do, well, at least hundreds of rough panel piece I do. Nowadays, it's more of a matter of trying to scan and edit them into panels and comics pages, and adding words where necessary. It's more of a matter of editing than creating half the time, even though I'll do more creating in the future, too. I'm turning 33 in 6 days, and I will probably be drawing comics and writing books and stories well into my 40s, 50s, and 60s if I live that long (I'm getting there in one sense.). After all, I'm kind of a nobody in the publishing industry's eyes and I've got nothing better to do.

Comic Fury Blog: http://mono.webcomic.ws/blog/

My God I'm Tired....Chronic Fatigue

I have a medical condition that's known to physicians as "Chronic Fatigue", meaning people tend to think you're incredibly "lazy" and avoid work when that isn't the case. It just means it's tough to do a lot of mental and physical exertion without feeling profound exhaustion. I feel strongly jealous of artist who are the same age as me who don't suffer from exhaustion, tiredness, and fatigue the way I do.

At times I can't even draw more than one small object on a page without feeling worn out. It sucks.

How to Be A Blogger

Blogging has increased in popularity, and no one ever asks me how or pays me.

But there are some fundamental principles to keep in mind when selecting topics for a blog entry.

• Write about What's on your mind.
• Write What's happening to you and around you
• Write about your interests, or (if you have one) your profession.

I tend to get obsessive about this stuff, I take it very seriously.

But you don't have to. I keep my notes simple. Not technical.

Living With Dumb People: Lessons in Stupidity: Vol. I

Stupid people are annoying. And arrogant.

Dumb people like noise and food. And I mean, they really, really, REALLY like noise and food. Something about their lower cognitive capacity causes them to be drawn towards these things.

Responsibility

Now that I'm getting older, I've realized I actually make a pretty good babysitter  for relative's kids. Assuming my parents are assisting in the task...

New END TIMES MANGA Links

http://mono.thecomicseries.com/

http://www.endtimesmanga.com/

http://endtimescomic-newearth.blogspot.com/

Big Brother is Hacking You, and Just What Exactly is In your Laptop?

I'm shocked privacy advocates are not more up in arms about the NSA-dominated laptop sales and manufacturing industries. Those cameras in all the new laptops are put there at the request of the NSA, CIA, and FBI to computer companies as an epic attempt at mass surveillance and spying

Social Media Popularity vs. 90s Popularity in School

Social Media Popularity vs. 90s Popularity in School

B.S.M. - Before Social Media

As a millennial 90s kid and teenager, I was not the most popular kid in my honor roll gifted classes growing up. I knew, like, 4-5 kids  growing up, maybe 10 or 15 friends from school by the time I dropped out of art school or college.

A.S.M. - After Social Media

I recently did an internet search for my pre-internet friends. They all had social media files, but most of them  went onto lead pretty normal down to earth non famous lives. And the fact that each of them only had like one to two friends on Google+ if that shocked me. Is that how they wanted it to be? Meanwhile I ended up with 1,000s of people claiming to be my friends, an army of "fans" and admirers and friends.

But I didn't have social media pre-internet era. For a while I was just a normal kid. Nothing all that spectacular about me, well, on the surface anyway. I didn't get noticed a whole lot.

I'm now entering the field of starting non-corporate streaming anime website. First website I created: Anime Dub Tube

ANIME DUB TUBE (FREE ANIME DUBS 24/7)

http://animedubtube.vidmy.com/

So far we're only halfway through uploading my first series upload, there will be many more to come

We plan on building up a larger library over time. Come back frequently to view free streaming anime dubs.

How'd 2015 go for you all last year?

Mine was pretty shitty. I was hauled off by police in July and left to rot in a psychiatric ward and retirement home on my own social security money (to pay the rent for my retirement home apartment) for 6 months nonstop, or half a year.

Nobody said genius was easy...

Exhausted As All Hell

Quite Frankly, I used up so much spiritual, emotional, and creative energy creating YouTube, starting revolutions in the media and society, battling competition and the Forces of Evil, and changing the name of the comics and animation game, getting attacked by neighbors and haters, and being loyal to my allies as they came and went. And frankly, I don't know if I'm going to get all, or even much of that energy back.

Truth be told, most of my most famous achievements (and yes, some of them were incredibly famous and influential and heavily written about in the media and news) I never got credit or recognition, mostly to the  fact that I contributed them anonymously and online. Nor was I ever paid or admired for said things.

Multimedia 4's. Quadrant studies.

When I started training in multimedia arts, I set a goal for myself that I would work to become the first or one of the first artists to become proficient in the 4 multimedia: Book, Comic Book, Film, and TV, supervising both the story, script, manuscript, and art aspects. I wanted my Mastery Training to be Quadrants if at all possible. But the main problem with pursuing this field is the fact that if you pursue Four Quadrants, you won't be mastering one individual field, and there's less supervision. I wanted to Master the Four Quadrants, primarily because no one else did first, or bothered to. Become proficient in Quadrants.

BCF's: Best Careers Forever

The scary part of entering the comic book industry, and animation industry is that, it's not just awards and perceptions, it's a long running event. It's for life. Creators might seem transient, but they're real people with real lives we normally don't see, too You have this brand Identity for Life. Chances are. You're associated with that small handful of colleagues for life. There isn't any turning back once you're in it, and sometimes you have very little freedom over the whole thing. I'm probably going to be the YouTube and manga-End Times guy for my whole life, till the day I die. That's a long time!

But on the bright side, that eliminates the element of a deadline. You have your whole life and the rest of eternity to hone your craft. A long damn time, 2-4 decades at least. 

Mistakes We Knew We Were Making

I've made some mistakes in my day. With no small element of those mistakes being the way I presented my work. One early mistake I made in online publishing was to hide a lot of my best drawings in favor of showing mediocre drawings I just did, in what comes across as some odd, and sloppy misunderstood attempt to show my audience my process in motion, and just assume my audience was in on the communication's joke.

They weren't. They had no clue those were some of my weakest art pieces from my sketchbooks, and not "The best effort I could do". And due to this misunderstanding, some of my audience judged me pretty harshly for it. 

Lesson learned.

J's Social Media Roundup

I think I'll link to some of my social media accounts

• YouTube
• Twitter
• Blogger
• Comic Press (coming soon)

For Art and Comics: 

• ComicFury
• DeviantArt

For Writing and Books:

• Goodreads (Where you can read my army of bad reviews people gave me)
• Scribd

Production of new art will resume, assume I ever manage to stop procrastinating at it...

Seriously, should a popular creative auteur and author's relation with the fandom be THIS VOLATILE??

My gut tells me no. I spent 15 years standing on my feet, training, preparing for possible success. Now that that success and popularity really does exist, I'm finding it a little hard to get back on my feet again and continue standing in place. I'm just very exhausted from living a difficult life, not all of it related to work. It's exhausting dealing with certain psychotic family, peers, and online fans.

The truth is, not all creators or creative projects are forced to deal with such adversity. Some people in entertainment have an incredibly easy time getting projects greenlit, licensed, adapted, completed, finished, and generally turn into something with relatively little effort or pain, typically that's where the status of the creator comes in. I remember early on in my career I was heavily influenced by Blade Runner, how it failed on its debut but later became a classic film. I said to myself, "Maybe the same thing is happening to me in some weird metaphorical way. I remember liking Blade Runner a lot because it took so much patience and waiting for anyone who worked on it to experience that success, and how it was dismissed and first and was initially considered a disappointment

It's not just what you're making, or who you are, or what your level is and how well you do what you do. You also have to assess the amount of difficulty and struggle attaining any of your achievements is. Struggle during your formative years, or midi-formative years is sometimes a small hidden sign your success will require patience, in a world gone IMPATIENT And hasty.

One of my horoscopes once told me I'll have an enormous audience in my later years, but my method of attaining that audience won't be a conventional or normal one, and also that the nature of my career and work won't allow me the means, ability, or ease to retire, and I'll be actively working, even to the end of my life.

Who invented Streaming Video!? ME, THAT'S WHO!!!

I invented streaming video in 2005, when I made the first upload of a copyrighted streaming video to YouTube, which technically wasn't legal, as I didn't own it. I uploaded it anyway I used footage I downloaded on my computer from Toonami Digital Arsenal and converted from Quicktime to Windows Media Video (WMV). Dozens of Billions of views later, here we are. 

J.M. Matthew's newest eBook, now available as a download, for less than 1/15th of the old Amazon price

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Comics and Media Compromise. Who has the real artistic credibility? Who's the real non-sellout?

Ultimately, selling out and compromise has come to mean "screen adaptation". Even the most edgy, dark, cartoonists come to be seduced by the seductive, glamorous, high-powered, wealthy light of TV and film and sometimes internet.

Ultimately, the cartoonists with the most underground and artistic credibility these days are those who refuse to adapt their work to the production contract of an L.A. studio for TV or film. What Bill Watterson did and what Dave Sim did are ultimately harder to do and preserve (the ideology of non-financial integrity) than what artists like Todd McFarlane or Jhonen Vasquez or Peter Laird and Frank Miller did. Which is ultimately adaptation to the screen. It's a power thing. Adapting your work gives you more social and or economic power than keeping your integrity. The  reason adaptation is hard to resist is because it is a guaranteed ticket for fame and fortune. It's a drug that's hard to say no to because it makes it a guaranteed ticket to survival for the creator

J.M. Matthews: Celebrating 1 Million Creative Content Impressions on Social Media in 2016

Well, I did an analytics count on a calculator, and recently realized that I received my first million creative content impressions on social media analytics this year or last. I got 600k video views on YouTube in Total in the last year and 400k views for my tweets archive. Which amounts to well over 1 million views, or "impressions". I should celebrate And this isn't even counting my books and comics, or blog writing.

"Get a job!" and other things people who are full of shit say

Due to the fact that we have expanding technological markets, new politicians, economies, and types of warfare emerging, U.S. Capitalism is not a stable market currently, hence whites and minorities all having difficulty finding a job.

"Oh, you're poor. Get off your butt and find a job." Riiiight. Cuz it's just that easy, isn't it? Cuz that's why dudes are selling their left testicle for money, right? Cuz it's just that easy to attain money as a liberal in America now.

Such delusional right wing forms of social thought are not only delusionally unrealistic toward the social and economic state of the current U.E. job market, but also dangerous for the U.S. Economy

Crystal Meth in the United States, First and Second Generations (90s and 2000s) or Good vs. Evil

Crystal Meth was an influential drug. It fueled much of the energy in the U.S. music and Hollywood industries. It was also found in A.D.D. medications prescribed to young elementary and middle school children by parents and teachers, when such a drug was considered more socially acceptable and not as linked to Neo-Nazism as it became in the 2002s with Florida Neo-Nazis and Brian Johnston. First wave Crystal Meth: Good. Second Wave Crystal Meth: Evil. The first generation was euphoric, lighthearted, liberal, and happy. The second generation was conservative, slow, and violently sociopathic. Just terrifying. 

Frank Miller Looks Like a Corpse Lately: Art and Mental Health

I'm still relatively young, well younger than alot of other pros in comics, but I'm well past my childhood or adolescence. I'm a young adult. Whether I like it or not I'm starting to realize I need to acknowledge that I'm getting older. Frank Miller is a good example. There's cancer rumors. Have you SEEN pictures of him lately. The guy looks like a LIVING CORPSE. I don't know how old he is exactly, I never even thought about things like that...till I saw what his face looks like recently. There are cancer rumors. It's sad.

I don't know if I'm past my prime, but I'm no spring chicken, plus I've been through a lot of medical trauma and issues in my private life. There's a lot of factors and setbacks in my life and health I don't bring up here. Like the fact that I have gynecomastia and mid level obesity from all that damn medication pills doctors and parents want to force on me.

That was when I realized, it's not just that I "don't have my shit together", I "don't have creativity", "I'm a hack" or "don't have what it takes.". It's all the damn trauma and neurobiological-trauma I've endured at the hands of cruel and abusive people. Medical frauds and whatnot. 

Where to draw your artistic influence from....(should be different for every artist)

My influences didn't start off just anime and manga like it is with a whole bunch kids these days. My influences started off much more diverse and well rounded. You should always try to keep your influences well rounded. Never use anime or manga exclusively as a crutch. I've been thinking of getting back to my American indie comics, superhero, cinematic, animation, and fine art influences. 

Dear Japan,

Dear Japan,

Could you slow down a bit in your comics department? You're tiring us dumb yanks out.

Thanks,

Da States...

Me? A "Famous Blogger"? Get outta town!

I don't know. I have a couple hundred dollars in savings, not much, and certainly not from blog earnings. I don't know why I said that.

Good News: J.M. Returns to the Internet

After a Half-Year-Long Hiatus, J.M. Matthews returns to active status on the medium that made him powerful and famous (but not wealthy of course)...

Patience and the Importance of Waiting in the Millennial Generation of Success

Late bloomer and young prodigy are relative terms. America values Youth, as do Europe and Asian culture, more so now than they used to. However in the age of the Millennial app entrepreneur, online streaming broadcast engineer, and Self-publishing indie DIY comics manga authors, there can still be modern day Claud Monets and Dr. Seusses. i.e. myself.

I know society has become impatient, and likes to watch and survey it's success stories and projects, but it isn't that simple. Patience is still rewarded. Am I an overachieving millennial and one of the first of my kind: In some ways, yes, but that does not mean I also don't have to wait for many things. I do. 

My Tumblr is Up and Active Again 

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jm-matthews

2016 - The Year J.M. Buckled Down

OKAY, peeps. 2016 is officially here. I'd been waiting for this year as I have all sorts of comics drawing plans for this year. 2016 is the year I WON'T be lounging, and will indeed be working hard and applying myself for the first time in my career. The Learning Period is over, and the Adjustment and Trauma Period is over. Now it's time to put my foot to the grindstone, buckle down, and produce new comics material that isn't just being recycled 1,000 times. My time spent publishing has taught me it's important not to recycle the distribution of your own work too much unless there is a lot of demand for that kind of thing...

So 2016 = Me Buckling Down and Working / Drawing New Manga Material

Up till this point, it wasn't so much lack of draftsmanship holding me back as it has been procrastination / avoidance toward Buckling Down and just working at it on the page with a pencil.