PSP, Awww yeah.

Got a PSP recently.

Not concerned about status

If I'm being completely honest about what motivates me. It's the fans positive reactions to my artwork. That makes me feel the  best.

Getting a positive reaction from the press, media, and fans (even indirectly or by proxy) for my work, and especially my artwork that positive feedback is really all the incentive I need to continue drawing indefinitely. I love when people notice and acknowledge my artwork in a positive way.

As long as I keep getting positive feedback, I'll keep trying my best and giving my all, and ultimately doing more comics....

My Future In Comics and Publishing

Honestly, I'm still in love with real indie comics and manga. I don't read as many new titles. Most of the better titles in comics are older and were published around 2001, a golden era for modern comics if you ask me.

But in case they ARE reading this, I'd love to eventually team up with either SLG and/or Oni. I'd LOVE to do an End Times / Parallax miniseries with EITHER ONE of those publishers. Working with Dark Horse, Image, Oni, or SLG would be a high honor for me if I ever attained it. Just as much of an honor as working with an anime studio. 

Oni and SLG (and to a degree, Dark Horse and Image) from the black and white artwork to the eccentric storytelling are very in tune with my own sensibilities. 

To me, that's quite the step up from Webcomics Nation. I know I have a good thing going ALREADY, but I still do want to one day work with a normal publisher. I don't plan to only self-publish for the rest of my life. When I finish more work, either written or illustrated, I'd like to pursue a relationship with a more mainstream publisher in a more conventional sense. There's still a lot of honor in printed publishing, if you ask me...Not to mention more money....

There seems to be a whole shitload of people....

Who just seem to want to "do what I do", and "follow in my footsteps".

Why on earth anyone would want to face THAT MUCH hostility & rejection [from EVERYONE]  is BEYOND ME.

Kind of confuses me a bit. Trying to perfect your art can be difficult when so many people only want to pay attention to your surface details and personality.

Eh, it's a living.....

Well, actually, I remember I at one point really admired Dave Sim, then when everyone accused him of being a "misogynist" in the media and online because of shit he wrote somewhere and the shitstorm of shallow animosity it unleashed on him, I very well could have been foreseeing my own controversy and destiny....one of great conflict and animosity from the public and peers. I remember seeing how HATED Dave Sim was, just as I am now, and thinking to myself "Wow. That guy gets under certain people's skin just for bashing feminism, a stupid concept anyway. He is SO FUCKING AWESOME!!!" I love "the hated guy". I always have, ever since the 90s. Probably because I AM the hated guy. That's one aspect of celebrity and publicity I can relate to: "Being hated". The hated guy is almost always the one that reflects the truth about how nasty society really is. How we're always ready to throw a brick and a stone on the guy (or girl) who really doesn't commit a crime, but instead "commits the crime of showcasing the worst aspects we're afraid of seeing and especially confronting in ourselves". From Marilyn Manson to Fred Durst to mugshots. I love it all! I love watching people acting like bitches about stuff. It's fun to LAUGH at the stupidity and thoughtless lynch mob mentality of the biased and bigoted (among other things) general public.

But Cerebus is quite the comic. I always sense an unrefined RAGE and ANGER and HATRED about Dave Sim and his best work, Cerebus. And I like Gundam too. In their prime they were driven by Anger and Rage. And Hatred. So is Metal and Hip-Hop. And Goth culture. Is this a dangerous element:? Maybe, but emotionally, channeling Anger, Rage, and Unfettered Hatred into An Epic Narrative and Lyricism is VERY appealing. Go ahead and KILL THOSE BITCHES. You're creative spirit will be eternally grateful to you. Channeling Anger and Rage into narratives, lyrics, and art is okay in my opinion. There's a certain virtuosic quality to approaching art and narratives in that way. But if you're anger ceases, you'll be less inspired.

Angry Masterpieces are Better. They JUST ARE...

It's an Unspoken Truth, that sometimes to Reach Paradise, Heaven, sometimes we have to channel and invoke the the Wrath & Flames of Hell Itself. We often must risk Damnation to Attain Transcendence.

I don't know if it's just me, but currently, most cartoons on TV feel a little "Prozac Happy, with fake ass characters, fake ass motivations, fake assed "design" and fake ass smiles. There are so many fake smiles and fake corporate happiness on TV recently. None of it's real. There's a difference between being a person with a burning passion and rage of life who's gonna annihilate something, and "just being a worthless, uptight PRICK DICK" Just another phony. 

What? Yeah, I'm stilll ALIVE, actually. Don't let the tombstone fool you....

Alive enough to draw this thing anyway.....

Soundtrack to this Thing: #ToonamiIsBackBitches, Richie Branson

On a technical level, I don't see anything this wicked out there on TV or the internet. I STILL DON'T SEE ANYTHING EXACTLY LIKE IT....anywhere pretty much. So I'm not worried. This kind of style is hard rip off. Well, it's hard to rip off successfully anyway. Better play Johnny Bravo....!

What?? No, I didn't mean it like that! How could you even THINK such a thing about my intentions. I don't do this sort of thing to get press coverage in the Ninja World....Ah, you got me. Okay, maybe a little...But ONLY SORT OF.....Actually, I do this because I love it. Press is good to me half the time though, so that's a bonus...

PSP? Probably...

Probably gonna buy a PSP system. I've wanted to start buying and playing games again for a long time now. Been waiting  a long time for the opportunity to be a gamer again. Lot's changed since I've last played a game on a game system I own. SNES is collecting dust. PSP is the what I'm gonna get. They got a lotta great titles from Square Enix, one of my favorite Japanese publishers. 

Well, I'm happy for now...

Things seem to be looking up for me. I'm on the verge of a breakthrough with my work and have gotten noticed by an important animation producer in Los Angeles, and as a result, I'm not depressed and fatigued anymore.