In
a certain sense, I've drawn at least 3,000 devoted to End Times. In a
certain sense, every drawing I did between 2004 and 2017 was drawn
with the Development and Manifestation of the End Times New Earth
Mythos in mind. If I drew something that didn't belong to that world,
I had still attempted to create that “failed” attempt as
something that did. Every drawing I created between 2004 and now was
created with the intent ot contribute to the imaginary world of End
Times and Mono. So even if the content wasn't always related, the
intent of the mind that created that drawing was. Same thing with
these Journals and Manifesto. The energy that created that massive
pile of pages was entirely and 100% devoted to Building End Times. I
didn't lack Focus in my Building. I was actually very single minded.
I lacked Execution. That's why I wrote mostly journals instead of
short and extended fiction for novels and End Times. It was an 8,000
page Novel and Stack of papers and Digital JPGs of me attempting to
not only develop End Times, but also Manifest and Build the End Times
World. So technically, if one counts every page I drew and wrote that
was made for End Times, The End Times Development Manuscript is
around 8,000 pages long, with pages both published and unpublished
published, online and off, fiction story, Sketchbook, Spiral
Notebook, and Journal Book and Entry alike.
Friday, April 21, 2017
Wednesday, April 19, 2017
How is your internet career? Mine takes more than gives...
I don't know if people know about this, but I've put a lot of money into maintaining my career online, and into web maintenance fees for the various URLs and webpages, and websites I own.
I've put a lot more money into whatever it is you think I am than my career ever gave back to me. Amazon paid me the largest amount of royalties I've ever gotten, which is to say $200 or so.
Bottom line is, I give Money out of MY POCKET to be as well known as I am, I've spent hundreds if not thousands of dollars on maintaining my art, writing, and brand.
I pay a lot of money to do what I do because this matters a lot to me. I don't put all this effort into my career because of "return on investment" as it has never amounted to much.
I'm not rich, and I might never be. Then again I suppose it could happen, if I ever again attained a large audience of people, I suppose if I had an online audience of millions, I could slap a few banner ads on it, buy a house to escape from my parents, and be done with it. But my audience is never simply grateful. They think they're owed something: By me. If they paid my bills, then I'd be grateful, but my audience doesn't do that. My audience just COMPLAINS and whines like little bitches. It's kind of ridiculous, the way my audience acts - Aggressively.
Monday, April 17, 2017
Sunday, April 9, 2017
The End Times was NOT an overnight success. Looks are deceiving
I've been attempting to
drawing comics since I was 7 years old, in elementary school, if not
even earlier.
I wrote a Journal devoted
to almost nothing but documenting my admiration for, and desire to
draw comic books and manga from 2000 – 2017 and beyond, a 5,000
page manifesto of my creative process, and how I was devoting all of
my resources and power to drawing and writing my own comics 80% of
that 5,000 pages was devoted to comic book planning and
contemplation, planning how I was making and effort to get artwork
done, repeatedly, for almost 2 decades. Even though my art was a bit
crude from time to time, I still moved forward with drawing comics.
Then, in 2013, when I finally got published and DID in fact make it
onto the Kindle Manga bestseller list, I got reviews from people who
thought I was as thoughtless in my approach as the teenagers and
little kids posting shitty webcomics who were also underestimating my
abilities. Instead of hearing any praise of my labor intensive and
almost 2 decade long approach to my comics production process, the
opposite thing happened. People assumed I didn't put any time or
effort into my comics production process, and not only did rip-off
get-rich-quick-online artist toss out a bunch of thoughtlessly rushed
pail imitations of end times, I got 1-star comic reviews from people
who don't even READ comic books, know-it-all dickheads with comments
like this:
but
this just seems like someone was bored at lunch, quickly drew some
stuff and thought, hey, I wonder if I can make this into a book. With
the caveat that I don't read a lot of magna and some who are more
immersed in that genre may find some redeeming qualities, this just
simply looks like lazy work.”
Kind
of like you're LAZY ASSED MOTHERFUCKING REVIEW! RIGHT YOU PRETENTIOUS
LITTLE DOUCHEBAG PRICK! Maybe you should learn to SPELL "Magna" correctly before you fucking review it, ASSHOLE
THIS HORSE..SHIT is the thanks I get for devoting 18 years of my life to creating innovative comics.
THIS HORSE..SHIT is the thanks I get for devoting 18 years of my life to creating innovative comics.
Saturday, April 8, 2017
Challenges of Adapting and switching into more commercial mediums (Comics)
Challenges of Adapting
and switching from Illustrations to the comic book and manga
storytelling genre.
Adapting to drawing in
condensed little panels and rectangles is one of the most challenging
and frustrating challenges of my career. I still haven't mastered the
switch, if I ever will. But I've improved. I think it has to do with
the “drawing a tiny composition” part. I'm not good at drawing
artwork on a small and reduced scale. I'm not a bad artist overall by
any means. In terms of my illustration skills, I've always had it
going on. But I didn't anticipate how difficult the switch from
conceptual design to illustration would be. To prove my point, here
is a side by side comparison of 4 of my more so-called “amateurish”
comic book pages, and how I REALLY draw when I'm in my element, and
am in full on Artist Mode.
Saturday, April 1, 2017
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